My Minimalism journey

A couple of days ago I found minimalism ( yeah I know late or what ), I stumbled across a video of a woman talking about how she’s a minimalist and how little she owns and my first thought was this bitch is crazy! How could any one person live with so little! 

Me being me watched a few more videos wanting to know more and about three videos in I was hooked, I found Youtubers to follow and more videos, I was making lists in my head of the things I could get rid of, I was organising everything I could remember I owned and felt an need to start bagging and boxing up my things.

And so began my minimalism journey. Now while there is a definition to what minimalism is, to me minimalism is not owning more than you need, not keeping hold of things you know are useless or you don't really want and having a clearer space and less stress.

So I have decided to do a series of blog post following my journey with minimalism and what happens. because I own a lot of crap! 

Have you heard of minimalism? What has been your experience with it so far? 

Driving with anxiety

Learning to drive, while dealing with anxiety has been a process, not just learning to drive but learning how to deal with the anxiety that accompanies it.

I took a week off from my weekly lessons because my test got canceled and I decided i haven't take a week off since April, I think I regret it. The anxiety had never gone away completely, I had gotten more comfortable with the situation but the anxiety never truly calmed and after taking a week off my anxiety about going back is worse.

Sometimes I just wish things were easy, that I could just get back on the horse instead on cowering in the corner but if things were easy I wouldn't grow, so here I'm hoping that when the day comes I haven't forgotten what I'm doing.

Yay anxiety....

Again..!

I really do suck at blogging.

Although I always come back so that has to say something right ?

Any way I've swapped my blog over to make it easier for me to access on certain devices, maybe now i'll write again.

Laser tattoo removal 1 week update!

It has been a week since i had lasers beamed into my arm.

So far so good, the first sort of itching I've had have started today and a little bit of aloe and it was fine. I had some pin prick bleeding on the day, but nothing since. I got some small blisters but nothing painful, nothing that caused a problem. It has been a little tender (felt like I had a bruise) but only if I put too much pressure on it.

I have already noticed some fading, and am feeling really good about it looking forward to my next session (which makes me sounds like a masochist ).

Week one complete.

If anything changes I'll update if nothing major happens I'll update in a couple of weeks.

My laser tattoo removal experience

Day 1
This morning at 11am I had my first laser tattoo removal session at a local clinic.
It took a while for me to chose this clinic and I looked around, checked reviews, and settled on this one, I booked a consultation, the people were nice, the building was clean, the technician was honest and to the point, yet friendly and welcoming.

I went home and spoke with my mum about it and we decided this was the one. we booked my first session and now here we are.

I'll start with a bit about my tattoo, its sheet music on my lower arm on the outside, very poorly done, was already very faded, only about a year old, terrible scratcher job.

My first session, I arrived just before my appointment this morning, was seen too and taken to the room almost immediately. The technician sat down and went over all the important information with me and the moved me to the bed. I sat on a chair with my arm on the bed, had a photo of the tattoo taken and she explain exactly what she was going to do, gave me my googles asked if I was ready, I said yes and she started.

The pain. The pain was apparent but not intolerable, I had to think to talk through it, but I could still talk. The procedure barely took 5 minutes so the pain didn't last long either. The technician the applied aloe vera gel wrapped me up and I was headed out the door again. I was in the building for about 15 minutes maximum.

5 hours on and I'm feeling good, slight tingling sensation and some swelling but I'm not in pain or uncomfortable in anyway.

Overall it was a very pleasant experience, I'm impressed with the everything I've experienced so far, I will update again in 7 days to see how things have been.

Driving update 2

So I'm about 13 ish ( I lost count) lessons in and not much has changed. I'm still having really bad anxiety and panic attacks the day and night before and the morning of, but I still get in the car and drive.

I no longer want my instructor to do it all for me as I know I am capable but I still vibrate with anxiety the whole time. (Interesting choice of words me)

We have been talking theory and practical tests which brings a whole different level of panic which sucks but it's something i'll have to deal with eventually, not that knowing that makes it any easy if anything knowing that I have to face it makes it worse.

I don't get as paranoid at traffic lights, ok maybe I do I'm just better at accepting it than before because I do feel slightly more confident than last time I updated. (yay things are looking up)

I'll update again in a few weeks or sooner if anything changes.

In the mean time, if anyone actually reads this and has any advice or idea to help or even a story to share about their experiences, please let me know.

It has been a while

I really suck at this blogging thing, I really want to do it and so it well, maybe it's because I'm lazy, maybe it's because of my insecurities, maybe a mix of both, but I'm going to keep trying and who knows maybe I'll actually post regularly.