Driving with anxiety

Learning to drive, while dealing with anxiety has been a process, not just learning to drive but learning how to deal with the anxiety that accompanies it.

I took a week off from my weekly lessons because my test got canceled and I decided i haven't take a week off since April, I think I regret it. The anxiety had never gone away completely, I had gotten more comfortable with the situation but the anxiety never truly calmed and after taking a week off my anxiety about going back is worse.

Sometimes I just wish things were easy, that I could just get back on the horse instead on cowering in the corner but if things were easy I wouldn't grow, so here I'm hoping that when the day comes I haven't forgotten what I'm doing.

Yay anxiety....

driving update

so I am on my 7th driving lesson and things seem to be going well ( i haven't crashed so i think thats a plus). I'm still having really bad anxiety the day and night before a lesson but I'm doing it, I get in that car and i drive...

my paranoia isn't to bad until I realise what I'm doing and that other people can see, which happens now and then and every time I have to stop at traffic lights, which lucky hasn't been to often.

Im quite happy with my progress so far but being a perfectionist makes it difficult for me to accept anything less than perfect from myself.

Second, first driving lesson

I did it! So I spent the morning shaking and feeling sick and I may or may not have cried...but I did it, I left the house and I drove.

I must admit I was glad when it was over, but I'm also so proud of myself for doing it, I shook through the lesson but didn't crash and that's always a good thing. 

Anxiety has stopped me from doing things so many time that I kind of get used to it, this time I'm so determind to do this and see it through. 

Anxiety can not rule my life (it will probably still rule most of it though, only for now!)

I got this!